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2010-06-16T04:27:00.001-07:00

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Ok, I tak rendu Facebook, sbb I ada blog, so what???

2010-04-21T22:15:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe, I bukan selalu blogging pon kan. Tapi yer yer, Facebook memang seekor BABI besar yang amat melalaikan. Tolonglah jangan deny. I know each and every one of you, have problemss with Facebook when it comes to relationship, friendship and sometimes 'perang siber'?? Apa tuh geng? Okay, mari kita lupakan Facebook sampai exam and ACADEMIC WRITING habis ya. Dan kita boleh praktikal dengan happynyaaa.

GG, plsss, I don't want Chuck to leave Blair and vice versa. Please :( I feel like crying watching episode 18. Don't do this to me!!!! Blair is my total inspiration even though she's a bitch sometimes.

Glad you are not around anymore :)

2010-04-21T15:18:00.000-07:00

If you are what you wear, you better dress the part you want. A few lucky ladies can do no wrong, their looks? Perfection.

And they've got accessories to match, but most girls get tired of the same old look. And they'll do just about anything to get the hot new piece on their arm.

And then there are those who had no vision of their own, thieves of fashion who will steal the shirt off your back.

Always remember, appearances can be deceiving.

But what ever you wear, always dress to kill.

p/s: This goes especially to all my ex-friends, backstabbers and some person who just don't really know how to appreciate the value of real friends. xoxo.

Aku janji.

2010-04-16T14:30:00.000-07:00

Hidup terumbang ambing bak kapal karam.

Pelampung hanyut dan bocor. Lemas lemas.

Kenapa di keji satu kesilapan yang aku kadang-kadang terlepas pandang.

Aku pentingkan diri. Mana mungkin aku begitu.

Cuma aku terlalu cuai dan lalai.

Terlalu tertekan.

Tidak pernah esakan ku seteruk ini.

Tidak pernah semangat ku luntur.

Mulai saat ini, aku janji, aku mahu memikirkan hal aku sendiri.

Nyah pergi kau masalah. Sedikit lagi Mahirah, kau mampu, kau tidak seteruk ini.

Kau mampu usaha menjadi lebih baik.

Berdiri, bangun kembali.

Kuatkan semangat. Ini dugaan.

Jangan ditangis lagi. Kau pohon pada Yang Esa, hanya pada Dia.

Like seriously ????

2010-02-19T11:11:00.000-08:00

Saat ni wahai Ahli Sihir, memang aku rasa macam nak hentak muka kau.

Kalau kau kuat sangat, meyh datang bergaduh ngan aku. Aku boleh lanyak kau tak da hal punya.

Ke kau takat boleh guna mulut je? Mulut laser? Tumbuh kurap la mulut kau.

Kau punya lemah lembut tuh, dengan jantan bolehlah cair, eyhhh? Ilmu apa kau pakai aaa?

Witches do exist, trust me :)

2010-02-19T10:46:00.000-08:00

Mari ambil mood menulis. Hari ini ada mood ikhlas nak menulis. Ikhlas dari hati yang amat pedih akibat daripada sikap kawan-kawan yang tak tau menilai erti satu persahabatan.

Aku ingat aku dah clear everything dengan Ahli Sihir tuh. Tapi rasanya ada lagi yang tertinggal. Aku rasa macam dia nak wreck the relationship I have with everyone. She almost made it happen. Almost make me fight with my housemates and my bestfriend. Ouh yeah? You think you can do that. Kenapa hati kau busuk sangat. Apa yang aku dah buat kat kau sampai kau nak buat macam ni kat aku?

Why Ahli Sihir? Why?

Why you can't get enough of what you already have? Why you can't let people be happy?

Kenapa nak laga-laga orang?

At first, aku memang ingat niat kau ikhlas, nak nasihat aku, because I am so called LOST?

Tapi lama-lama aku fikir, there is nothing positive about you, Damn It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You keep silent, I know, because that might safe your ass. But you are fucking wrong, sebab ada SATU benda lagi yang aku rasa kau buat. Which is telling Sam about me. If whatever I'm having in this thoughts, whether it is wrong or right, please do tell me. Aku tak boleh nak bagi kau hidup senang selagi aku tak tau pasal benda ni, and till then I'm gonna make your life as living as hell. I don't want to hold any grudge towards you because it makes me sick. Sick enough to just think of you. I just want to erase you, that's all. Witch!

People starts talking about you since diploma, and the hell I care because I thought I knew you, I thought you were my friend. But I was wrong, the demons dwell inside you is definitely still there.

If it is true, I hope you'll burn in hell for this.

Racismmmmm sorry Megat lambat update

2009-12-27T23:30:00.000-08:00

1 a belief or doctrine that inherent differences among the various human races determine cultural or individual achievement, usually involving the idea that one's own race is superior and had the right to rule others.

2 a policy, system of government, etc., based upon or fostering such a doctrine; discrimination.

3 hatred or intolerance of another race or other races.

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So clearly I have stated the most closest meaning to rey-siz-uhm (RACISM) which is all comes to an end that it is all based on discrimination. To me the 1 Malaysia thingy that our Prime Minister have been yelling and screaming for, is all an abandoned project or shall I say 'Projek Gagal'. It is a mask to hide all the corruptness that lies within our country. 1 Malaysia was actually tries portraying the goodness in our country but there are still people who can't understand that they are actually living in Tanah Melayu and not Tanah Cina or Tanah India. Please respect the fact that this is our land!

Not all people are racist. I was not before. I can still keep up with arrogant Chinese or boastful Indians. But at one point, during one event that I'm involved, I am super mad with all the rich people there. Mostly Chinese.

I was in charged with the banquet on settling food and stuff (waitress, I presume, Haha), the event name should not be mention for certain reasons. It was held at PICC Putrajaya, and all the guests were mostly Chinese.

There were three tables and and I was in charged to cover those tables with another girl. I was fine at first, because the fussy table were only one but then, things started to stumbled when my feet are aching for walking back and forth to get the food at the kitchen and with all the heavy plates some more. Sigh. Ouh, and high heels!

Ok, now my feet is killing me and I was still trying my best to served the guests in a proper way. But then, this one Chinese lady and the whole fucking table started to treat me like a slave.

"Hey you, come here!" in a very rude way, why can't you call me in other proper way?

So I walk to her and said, "Yes mam, can I help you?"

"This glass is dirty, go and change to new glass. New glass aaaa, don't want this one."

With that Chinese slang, pok pek pok pek, and I looked at that glass, it was fucking clean. What is your problem. Bullying me? Because I'm serving you. Fucking bitch!

"This glass is clean mam."

"Aaaaaaa, no no no. Change change. Don't want this one aaaaaa."

Puki mak kau! Hahaha. The hell I care. Fine, I'm a good server. So I went to change the glass but there was no more clean glass left. So I wash it.

Jahat kan mereka. If ever a Chinese girl serving me, I would not be that cruel to her. Hey, stupid. You think you are so big. I can speak English better than you laaaaaa.

Geeez, I'm sorry for all the bad words I'm using. I'm so pissed off.

It's not just that lady, there were also other guests who treated my friends worst.

So here, the moral of the story, jangan la macam haram sangat perangai tuh, tau la makan babi, tapi agak-agak la. Off course, I will not, definitely not do the same thing like that bitch were doing.

Peace no war. Theee he he.

Cranky.

2009-12-24T04:51:00.000-08:00

Bosan, penat, emo, ego, asshole!

Jantung lemah, paru paru susah nak di pam. Hari ini hari emo. Sikit-sikit rasa nak nangis.

Tapi I jogging tadi, hehe, jejaka-jejaka kacak yang jogging bersama membuatkan hati riang sedikit.

Lepas ni, I can say Bye Bye and Farewell to all my lemak.

Sofia, tomorrow kita date jogging lagi ya.

Hujan pun kita redah OK. Love you!

Racist, yes I am.

2009-12-16T15:31:00.000-08:00

Mengantuk. Otak sebal. Penat macam nak meninggal.

But I can't sleep.

Give me back my 'sleeping pills' and my 'happy pills'.

Hari ini hari penat sedunia. I've never felt so tired in my whole life.

Tapi sebab event yang sangat sangat meracistkan tadi, membuatkan I lagi tak boleh
tidur.

I will eventually write about the event after I woke up. Fresh and may be I will have different perspective on RACISM.

Girlfriends! I need hugs! Pronto!

THINGS TO DO

2009-12-13T16:33:00.000-08:00

1/ Clean up the house.

2/ Settle all the bills. Ask for money from HOUSEMATES, duh?

3/ Download as many love stories as you can.

4/ Download as many long songs as you can.

5/ Be happy for yourself. *Who else can you be happy for*

6/ Look inside you and dig that Merotte out.

= BETTER PERSON, help me achieve this.

Pardon my midnight english.

2009-12-13T16:07:00.000-08:00

The sun usually shines so brightly at this time every morning but today, it was all cloudy. It has always shines to every centre of this curtainless room. Where could have the sun go? Is it going to be raining today?

I stood still; keep thinking of the rest of the day, and for the rest of the month. Thinking.

Should my life would change if I did something much better back then during high school years. Could I have been a much better person than today? It keeps lingering on my mind since I did not have the nerve on I-DONT-BOTHERED-AT-ALL state of which that I should be bothered on my examination result. Still, nothing worries me at all. Little that I know, this might not be a serious syndrome or brain stop responding or what so ever.

Here I am, dozing off, flying high touch the sky with all this enormous smoke.

Do I need to meet psychiatry? Or a Bomoh. For god sake, please give my nervous system back.

I can still smile. I can still be pretty. But I am too weak to go anywhere, to go out from this hole that I have been since I feel this lost.

I need surrogates. I can think and dream of anything which is might not be possible to the world. And yet, I guess my surrogates can help me to settle those dreams and make it a reality.

HAI HO HAI HO, Hear ye Hear ye,

I NEED SURROGATES, please invent this ASAP!

Bila minda melayang.. (1)

2009-12-12T13:49:00.000-08:00

Minda melayang.
Jasadku mati dimamah hasad yang durjana.
Kepalaku dihujung ufuk cita-cita.
Menyemai impian tandus.

Tubuhku kaku.
Mindaku laju.

Dimana letak silapnya anak bangsa berjiwa tandus,
kesal sekelumit tidak berguna,
Biar jasad dimamah tonah dan hina.

Jangan bangsaku.

Kesal kesal kesal,
amarah berleluasa,
dengkuran kecilku menggemit,
hancurkan mereka!

Syaitan yang dahagakan dosa manusia.

:)

2009-08-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

Biar pun kau umpama menabur garam ke luka.

I would not be afraid.

Don't be afraid. Be brave. Take chances. I have nothing to lose.

Layang-layang.

2009-08-17T23:29:00.000-07:00

Aku kini bagai layang-layang terputus talinya.
Aku akan kembali. Kembali.

Tunggu.

Kau lemparkan hina dan tomah. Tiada sekelumit belas.

Tunggu aku kembali.

Hamba tak terkilan :(

2009-08-16T12:58:00.000-07:00

Cenderawasih burung kayangan
Tuanku putih kilau keemasan
Pandanglah hamba si gagak hutan
Sebelah mata pun hamba tak terkilan

Cenderawasih burung kayangan
Tuanku putih kilau keemasan
Adumu bercadarkan pintalan gemawan
Tidur hamba beralas reranting hutan

Tak hamba terkelindan sayap dipatahkan
Tak hamba terkilan telur hamba dipecahkan

Hamba akur dengan suratan
Hamba akur dengan kehendak Tuhan
Hamba akur berketurunan bermandi hinaan

Kau pinta didodoikan rintikan hujan
Ku mampu rintih senandung kedukaan
Penat hamba menanam ubi

Aduhai cenderawasih pintamu keterlaluan
Kau inginkan hamba kalungkan bulan
Kau kepinginkan kerabu dari bintang berkerdipan
Kau dambakan rantai untaian buih lautan

jiwa berantakan.

2009-08-16T12:52:00.000-07:00

Kadang-kadang manusia lupa dan alpa pada sesuatu yang tidak pasti.
Bila sesuatu dah hilang barulah nak dicari.
Bila sesuatu itu sudah pasti tidak akan kembali, barulah mahu ditagih kembali.

Kenapa mahu dikenang?

Pergi. Kau pergi.

Dan aku akan pergi.

Tak akan kembali.

Hanya masa yang akan mengubati segalanya.

menahan setiap amarah.

2009-08-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

Tak perlu diungkap dengan kata-kata.
Semua pasti tak kembali sama.
Hanya kata-kata pengubat jiwa, perosak jiwa.

Biar aku lari jauh.
Biar aku terbang jauh.

Jangan di cari aku.
Jangan lagi kau sakiti aku.

Kenangan lama akan aku buang disaat masih mampu.
Akan aku lontar beribu batu.

heartache :)

2009-05-07T16:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I could forget you as easily as you forgot me.

I pretend I don't fear your footsteps fade away.

I hate you so much that it makes me sick.
I hate the way you are always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you are not around.

And the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly i hate the way,
I don't hate you.

Not even close,

not even a little bit,

not any at all.

I wish I could hate you. I miss you terribly.

does the song cookie jar have a second meaning?

2009-05-04T18:35:00.000-07:00

I don't think the whole song is about cookies.

And yeah, he's referring to all the different types of "cookies" that he can't stay away from (like, for example, there isn't a really an "Oatmeal Raisin Asian")

Cookies really don't look good in satin jeans, anyways. The song's just talking about how hard it is about staying faithful to someone when there are so many good-looking.....cookies out there.

Geeeeez.

And another hot hot information is that cookie jar is a pussy.
U know, pussy! Huhu.

wahai asshole sekalian.

2009-05-04T18:28:00.000-07:00

Ini maksud POKER FACE, kepada sesiapa yang tidak tahu.

(poker) An impassive facial expression cultivated to prevent other players from determining whether one's actions in the game are the result of a quality hand, or of bluffing.

Though he thought he had a perfect , he had a number of tells his opponents soon learned.

Any similar expression used to prevent giving away one's motives, feelings, or situation.

Jika aku seorang lelaki yang hensem dan . . . :)

2009-05-04T11:11:00.000-07:00

Kembali kepada topik yang pernah dibincangkan suatu ketika dahulu dimana kalau aku jadi lelaki, mesti gf aku sayang gila kat aku! Hehe.

Aku tak ada lah sampai nak ubah haluan.
Cuma, aku kadang-kadang tak faham kenapa lelaki semua macam sangat cold and stiffnyeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Tak faham langsung ke perasaan seorang perempuan, kenapa kita boleh faham dia, tapi dia tak nak usaha pun nak faham kita.

Semua ini adalah totally in general, tidak ada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau pun mati. Aku lagi-lagi bertambah bengang selepas menonton video klip If I Were A Boy. Macam gampang.

Sebab itulah bezanya diantara lelaki dan perempuan. It's like lock and keys. They always need to find ways to understand each other.

Guys got ego macam gila bapaknya tinggilah.

So, girls have to bertahan and at the same time trying to make them understand girls better.

Good guys will slowly adapt the situation with the girls and they will become perfect lover.

But still some guys pretend there's nothing wrong with the situation and the problem always came from the girl's side. NOT TRUE!

Conclusion, both must learn to respect and understand each other.

Sobssssss. I miss you, wherever you are.

p/s: Hasil daripada FB chat bersama incik Danial Haikal. Thank you dear pal for the tips !

Unpredictable kan ?

2009-05-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

Trust me, perkara ini benar-benar terjadi. We were about to watch midnight movie with bunch of friends yang terdiri daripada Mary Baby, Cik Piah, Idayu M. Ahmad, John, Jerry and Florence.

So we don't know what to watch. Bosan bosan saja. We asked John yang sedang berdating dengan Florence picked a story and buy tix for all of us first because we were so busy singing at the karaoke jamban at Cineleisure. Soooo the movie that he choose was Valkyrie.

It was fine with me. I memang suka movie yang pasal history and bunuh-bunuh and bom sana sini. Baru ganas kan. Tapi Cik Piah tak berapa gemar. The first hour we watched Valkyrie, Cik Piah dah cakap dia nak keluar daripada panggung.

Tapi I halang. Hehe.

So basically, towards the end of the story, I can see that Cik Piah was concentrating. The story which based on a true event was a bit sad and radical. Valkyrie opens with a Colonel Stauffenberg in Africa, penning in a journal his thoughts about World War II, and how he feels Hitler is destroying Germany. Stauffenberg states he took an oath to swear allegiance to Hitler, but feels he owes more to Germany.

So bla bla bla bla.

Adolf Hitler then arrested the people who wanted to kill him. The remaining four person who wanted to kill Adolf Hitler which are Stauffenberg, Quirnheim, Olbricht and Haeften are taken outside and simultaneously executed by firing squad. The best part where Tom Cruise as Stauffenberg was shot to death. It was pretty sad because Stauffenberg's dreams to conquer and save Germany was not fulfilled.

Sooooo Cik Piah nangis dow masa ending cerita tu !!!!

I amat terharu kerana Cik Piah menangis. Lepas ni kita tonton cerita begini lagi ya Cik Piah shayang! Hehe. Jangan marah ya.

p/s: Saya amat rendu boobies sekalian. Tunggu kepulangan saya di teratak mewah !

My mom's all-time-favourite !

2009-05-04T03:46:00.000-07:00

Christopher Reeves and Brandon Routh

My mom loves Superman, seriously, and every time she have dozens of free time, she will eventually play the Superman's DVD over and over again.

Geeeee. She loves Christopher Reeves (saya suka juga!). So, semalam, mama buat marathon Superman lagi. Tapi yang the new actor punya, Brandon Routh from Superman Returns.

It can really does makes me melt like a chocolate or cheese melting in a microwave. Sangat kacak okay!

Sedang I search for this two hot guys pixels, mama lalu di belakang and stop by and sit, "OOOoooh, Superman!"

HAHA, it can be very addictive. And I will always join her whenever she wanted to watch Superman.

p/s: i love my momma !

hari yang berlalu dengan perlahan.

2009-05-04T03:25:00.000-07:00

Jiwa yang kacau dan kusut ditambah dengan kesunyian yang amat mendalam membuatkan aku bertambah tensi dan boleh menyebabkan kegilaan yang serius. I can't live in serious deadly silence. Pada saat ini, aku perlukan kebisingan dan hilai tawa meriah rakan-rakan boobies sekalian.

Aku hanya mengharapkan seorang teman untuk berbual dan mendengar segala keluhan. Even exam dah habis, but it still haunts me. Macam hantu-hantu Keliwon. Serammmm gila.

Mengeluh panjang, mengelamun, cari video-video lama Maria Ozawa sambil mendengar lagu-lagu koleksi jepun yang aku ada, hmmm, Kiroro, Japanese sangat mak ni nyeeeh. Ouh, and Maria Ozawa dah mati? Aku masih mencari kebenaran tentang itu.

Aku sedang mencari kenalan lama dari sekolah rendah (SKT) mahupun menengah (KE), untuk dijadikan teman lepak. Where ever you are guys, do contact me.

Akhir-akhir ini aku amat pemarah. Amat-amat. Kasihan si kecil, sering di marahi dan menjadi tempat melepas geram.

pita rancak jiwangan 5.

2009-05-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari

Kau pergi.. pergi..
Sepi tanpa kata
Terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau ku lupa
Apa pun kata mereka
Biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

bila rasa ku ini rasa ku . tah ape benda tah .

2009-05-01T02:35:00.001-07:00

Dia pergi Pangkor with bunch of fellow office mates. I shouldn't be angry; I should let him be happy after long hard work at office. Tapi I marah, I bengang, I tak nak bagi dia have fun. Because I’m worried sick for every single second, and I know he wouldn't do things like this if I’m with my friends.

I don't know what exactly I want.

Possibly I'm just jealous because I'm not with him. And maybe he is having fun and laughing with other girls.

All this stupid negative thinking keeps on lingering on my mind. Lancau la !

I sedih. I sedih.

So, I refuse to reply his messages because I don't want to hurt him with all the sarcastic words which I might throw to him...

Let him be happy. Let him be......

And I need a vacation myself.

P/s: I love u baby 8(

my friend is a porn star .

2009-04-16T10:16:00.000-07:00

Okay, the title was a lil bit exaggerated by me. Dia bukanlah seorang porn star, tapi boleh jika I rasa nak classify dia begitu. Macam dah over the limit when I saw the latest pic of Dia.

Dia dah berubah 360! Like OMG who the fucking are you?? You are my friend?? What happen to you?? Where's all your bulu bulu??

Gosh, Dia macam sangat lelaki, even may be dia gay, but still lelaki figure before this. Sad but true....

People change. I sedih, I sayang my friend tuh. Dah lama tak jumpa and yet so many changes happen.

I'm just praying that you wouldn't go far from the right path :)

Much love dear friend, xoxo.

hipokrit, big LOSER .

2009-04-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

I bukan tak suka orang nak tiru i, ehem ehem, (macam best je i ni kan), tapi kalau orang tuh i benci, i memang menyampah la. GET A LIFE !

Ya ampun, you are the most pathetic person ever live in this whole universe. GET A LIFE (2 kali dah ni) !

I kesian dekat dia. Macam sangat-sangat menyedihkan. I geram sebab perangai dia sangat la macam bagus. Macam, 'Hey people! Look at me! I'm gorgeous! I'm Paris Hilton' Hum. Son of a bitch sangat. Tapi tak lah hebat mana pun dia tuh, uolls !

I geram geram geram. Tolonglah, be humble a lil bit okay. Orang benci tau tak? Kau nak semua orang benci kau ke???

And baguslah, kau kawan dengan kawan-kawan yang sangat sama level dengan kau. GOOD FOR YOU !

ATTENTION .

2009-03-23T11:35:00.000-07:00

Kepada sesiapa yang terasa, terima kasih saya ucapkan, teruskan terasa.

p/s: You can lie to people, but you can't lie to God.

Fucked Up !

2009-03-20T18:52:00.000-07:00

Hari ini hari sedih sedunia. Semua sedang bersedih. Ada yang ditinggalkan kekasih, ada yang bergaduh dengan kekasih dan ada yang terlampau banyak assignment dan memaksa pihak lain menolong menyiapkan assignmentnya sambil menangis. Hehe. That was a lil bit exaggerated by me. Tapi memang today I kena tabah. Even though my emotion is not that stable but I need to be strong so that Sofia have my shoulder to lean on.

Kadang-kadang I fikir, why people must break up? I have few break ups in my life and I know it sucks. Bila dah break, we realized that we love that person more than anything in this world. Why can’t people just be nice to each other and learn to tolerate.

Why? Why?

Ok. Bla bla bla. I nak start story hot nih 8)

There’s this one guy which practically I know since I started my diploma at Puncak, nak story kat u olls la nih. Panas mak tau!

I can say that he likes me. Why? There’s a reason for everything kan. Sebab, he gave me present, he sings to me through voice SMS and ‘us’ SMSing each other in class, he ask me to be his GF and bla bla bla. So basically, he likes me la kan? But I rejected him.

After that incident, we ignored each other, like there’s none of us exist in this world. A bit sad, but the hell I care. So, then he started to like other girls. Good for you! Found his suitable princess then couple with that girl then live happily bla bla bla but not ever after because they BROKE UP!

I was not that close to that girl before. So when I started my degree we’ve been the best of friends because we are in the same class. I pity her. From what I know, that guy treats every girl as equal. Even to her. Sad but true. We girls, off course want our BF to treat us in a special way, right?

Dah lah flirt around, tipu sini sana. Lepas tu, sedih lah this guy after break up. Everybody pity him because he keeps telling everyone about why, what, when, how dan segala 5W 1H lah about the break up. But the girl was silent. Dia biarkan saja. It was a good thing to do. Buat apa kita nak cerita buruk pasal orangkan? So people sangka buruk pasal this girl lah. Because dia diam.

After a while, me and her were exchanging our story! I ask her did she know the story about me and him before. She said yes, but the story was different! Macam babi. Si lelaki tuh cakap, I yang tergila-gila kat dia, kejar-kejar dia?????!! What the fuck kan? Gila muka tak malu. Kalau dia diam saja, kan lagi bagus!

Eeeeeeeeee, i geram sangat! Yang lagi best, dia beritahu that girl yang dia first time sings to a girl through voice SMS to her!! HAHA, loser, penipu! He sings at me before.

Adoiyai, perlukah berperangai macam ini?

I just hope that sooner or later, he will learn his lesson. Jangan mempermainkan perasaan orang. Ingat apa???? Orang tak ada perasaan macam kau ke? Apa yang dah dapat tak nak jaga ELOK-ELOK. Bila dah tak ada baru nak cari. Babi kan perangai macam tuh. Stupid idiot!

gone ...

2009-02-23T18:31:00.001-08:00

Si gadis itu telah pergi meninggal rakan-rakannya di sini. Bright girl, beautiful and loving, there are more that I can say about her. Puteri or Adhe Ellis Kurnia who was originally from Indonesia, telah pergi buat selama-lamanya dalam satu kemalangan jalan raya. There were three of them involved in that accident, it was Puteri alone died. She was seating at the back of the car and the worse to be injured in that accident. Other friends were injured severely.

Selepas kemalangan di Melaka, Puteri koma. Tidak sedarkan diri. There were few close friends of her went to visit her at Melaka, telling me that her neck down to her feet was physically okay and perfect. But her face was swollen. Only her face was damaged. Kesian. One of her eyes was going blind and maybe she might lose her memory.

Puteri was sad, people know that it would not be long for her to go and meet Yang Esa. When she is crying, one of her eyes pouring with tears, and the other eye was pouring with blood. Indeed, it was very terrifying.

She was gone after a few days she awakes from comma. I went to her funeral, to see her one last time to give respect and give my condolences to her family. I went with Sofia. There were many friends already there. We were three hours early to arrived at Puteri’s brother house at Subang Bestari. The weather was so hot at first, and then it was raining heavily. Once the ‘van jenazah’ arrived the rain starts to poured slowly. I can say that it was ‘renyai-renyai’...

Everything went smoothly. All the process of kebumi, kapan and all were done without problems. Berduyun-duyun rakan-rakan dan keluarga yang datang. She was so lucky to have all her friends to be there during her funeral.

This tragedy is a lesson for everyone. Jangan memandu dengan merbahaya. Kemalangan itu meragut nyawanya! She is still young. There are a lot of things for us to explore more. Just remember, drive safely, ingatlah orang yang tersayang.

AL-FATIHAH .

TO DO BEFORE LEAVING FOR SHAH ALAM

2009-01-27T21:31:00.000-08:00

1 Get food to store in the big fridge at home !

2 Stop biting fingernails

3 Achieve self-actualization

4 Find inner harmony between conscious and subconscious

5 Be happy with Sam !

Tadaima (Saya Dah Balik).

2009-01-24T09:08:00.000-08:00

According to my lecturer, in one of his lectures. He said that 'A Message to Garcia' can change people's life. Nothing change for me. May be i just need to read again and focus more, i did not read it properly the first time.

OK. I ngantuk.

Selalu kan i boleh berjaga sampai 6am even tiada apa-apa kerja pun. Just sit helplessly on the couch and watch DVDs. Itu aktiviti dululah...

Well, my life seems pretty normal this few weeks. Sleep early. Wake up early. No more burung hantu sindrom.

Is this a good sign? To me, yes in deed it is.

I'm evolving and changing, for the better.

2009, great year.

Dah nak habis Januari 2009 dah. I baru nak buat introduction new year disini. Tiada kesempatan masa and no internet access at teratak mewah di seksyen 7 (Rumah Sewa Saya!!!!)

Ngantuks, nity nite people.

A Message to Garcia (1899) by Elbert Hubbard

2009-01-24T08:38:00.000-08:00

In all this Cuban business there is one man stands out on the horizon of my memory like Mars at perihelion. When war broke out between Spain & the United States, it was very necessary to communicate quickly with the leader of the Insurgents. Garcia was somewhere in the mountain vastness of Cuba- no one knew where. No mail nor telegraph message could reach him. The President must secure his cooperation, and quickly.

What to do!

Some one said to the President, "There’s a fellow by the name of Rowan will find Garcia for you, if anybody can."

Rowan was sent for and given a letter to be delivered to Garcia. How "the fellow by the name of Rowan" took the letter, sealed it up in an oil-skin pouch, strapped it over his heart, in four days landed by night off the coast of Cuba from an open boat, disappeared into the jungle, & in three weeks came out on the other side of the Island, having traversed a hostile country on foot, and delivered his letter to Garcia, are things I have no special desire now to tell in detail.

The point I wish to make is this: McKinley gave Rowan a letter to be delivered to Garcia; Rowan took the letter and did not ask, "Where is he at?" By the Eternal! there is a man whose form should be cast in deathless bronze and the statue placed in every college of the land. It is not book-learning young men need, nor instruction about this and that, but a stiffening of the vertebrae which will cause them to be loyal to a trust, to act promptly, concentrate their energies: do the thing- "Carry a message to Garcia!"

General Garcia is dead now, but there are other Garcias.

No man, who has endeavored to carry out an enterprise where many hands were needed, but has been well nigh appalled at times by the imbecility of the average man- the inability or unwillingness to concentrate on a thing and do it. Slip-shod assistance, foolish inattention, dowdy indifference, & half-hearted work seem the rule; and no man succeeds, unless by hook or crook, or threat, he forces or bribes other men to assist him; or mayhap, God in His goodness performs a miracle, & sends him an Angel of Light for an assistant. You, reader, put this matter to a test: You are sitting now in your office- six clerks are within call.

Summon any one and make this request: "Please look in the encyclopedia and make a brief memorandum for me concerning the life of Correggio".

Will the clerk quietly say, "Yes, sir," and go do the task?

On your life, he will not. He will look at you out of a fishy eye and ask one or more of the following questions:

Who was he?

Which encyclopedia?

Where is the encyclopedia?

Was I hired for that?

Don’t you mean Bismarck?

What’s the matter with Charlie doing it?

Is he dead?

Is there any hurry?

Shan’t I bring you the book and let you look it up yourself?

What do you want to know for?

And I will lay you ten to one that after you have answered the questions, and explained how to find the information, and why you want it, the clerk will go off and get one of the other clerks to help him try to find Garcia- and then come back and tell you there is no such man. Of course I may lose my bet, but according to the Law of Average, I will not.

Now if you are wise you will not bother to explain to your "assistant" that Correggio is indexed under the C’s, not in the K’s, but you will smile sweetly and say, "Never mind," and go look it up yourself.

And this incapacity for independent action, this moral stupidity, this infirmity of the will, this unwillingness to cheerfully catch hold and lift, are the things that put pure Socialism so far into the future. If men will not act for themselves, what will they do when the benefit of their effort is for all? A first-mate with knotted club seems necessary; and the dread of getting "the bounce" Saturday night, holds many a worker to his place.

Advertise for a stenographer, and nine out of ten who apply, can neither spell nor punctuate- and do not think it necessary to.

Can such a one write a letter to Garcia?

"You see that bookkeeper," said the foreman to me in a large factory.

"Yes, what about him?"

"Well he’s a fine accountant, but if I’d send him up town on an errand, he might accomplish the errand all right, and on the other hand, might stop at four saloons on the way, and when he got to Main Street, would forget what he had been sent for."

Can such a man be entrusted to carry a message to Garcia?

We have recently been hearing much maudlin sympathy expressed for the "downtrodden denizen of the sweat-shop" and the "homeless wanderer searching for honest employment," & with it all often go many hard words for the men in power.

Nothing is said about the employer who grows old before his time in a vain attempt to get frowsy ne’er-do-wells to do intelligent work; and his long patient striving with "help" that does nothing but loaf when his back is turned. In every store and factory there is a constant weeding-out process going on. The employer is constantly sending away "help" that have shown their incapacity to further the interests of the business, and others are being taken on. No matter how good times are, this sorting continues, only if times are hard and work is scarce, the sorting is done finer- but out and forever out, the incompetent and unworthy go.

It is the survival of the fittest. Self-interest prompts every employer to keep the best- those who can carry a message to Garcia.

I know one man of really brilliant parts who has not the ability to manage a business of his own, and yet who is absolutely worthless to any one else, because he carries with him constantly the insane suspicion that his employer is oppressing, or intending to oppress him. He cannot give orders; and he will not receive them. Should a message be given him to take to Garcia, his answer would probably be, "Take it yourself."

Tonight this man walks the streets looking for work, the wind whistling through his threadbare coat. No one who knows him dare employ him, for he is a regular fire-brand of discontent. He is impervious to reason, and the only thing that can impress him is the toe of a thick-soled No. 9 boot.

Of course I know that one so morally deformed is no less to be pitied than a physical cripple; but in our pitying, let us drop a tear, too, for the men who are striving to carry on a great enterprise, whose working hours are not limited by the whistle, and whose hair is fast turning white through the struggle to hold in line dowdy indifference, slip-shod imbecility, and the heartless ingratitude, which, but for their enterprise, would be both hungry & homeless.

Have I put the matter too strongly? Possibly I have; but when all the world has gone a-slumming I wish to speak a word of sympathy for the man who succeeds- the man who, against great odds has directed the efforts of others, and having succeeded, finds there’s nothing in it: nothing but bare board and clothes.

I have carried a dinner pail & worked for day’s wages, and I have also been an employer of labor, and I know there is something to be said on both sides. There is no excellence, per se, in poverty; rags are no recommendation; & all employers are not rapacious and high-handed, any more than all poor men are virtuous.

My heart goes out to the man who does his work when the "boss" is away, as well as when he is at home. And the man who, when given a letter for Garcia, quietly take the missive, without asking any idiotic questions, and with no lurking intention of chucking it into the nearest sewer, or of doing aught else but deliver it, never gets "laid off," nor has to go on a strike for higher wages. Civilization is one long anxious search for just such individuals. Anything such a man asks shall be granted; his kind is so rare that no employer can afford to let him go. He is wanted in every city, town and village- in every office, shop, store and factory. The world cries out for such: he is needed, & needed badly- the man who can carry a message to Garcia.

-THE END-

sedih, sangat luka yang pedih.

2009-01-09T01:47:00.000-08:00

Lirik ada di bawah. Sobsss. My current playlist.

Matahari ku .

2009-01-09T01:41:00.000-08:00

Tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hati ku,
yang pernah dibuka waktu, hanya untuk mu.
Kini kau pergi, dari hidup ku,
ku harus relakan mu, walau aku tak mau.

Berjuta warna pelangi, di dalam hati.
Sejenak luluh bergeming, menjauh pergi.
Tak ada lagi, cahaya suci,
semua nada beranjak, aku terdiam sepi.

Dengarlah matahari ku,
suara tangisan ku, ku bersedih,
karna panah cinta menusuk jantung ku.
Ucapkan matahari ku,
puisi tentang hidup ku, tentang ku,
yang tak mampu, menaklukkan waktu.

Cool kan ?

2008-12-24T05:50:00.000-08:00

This is me in a few months from now. I will be graduating and lambung-lambung the graduation hat in April, i guess. Dah tamat diploma! Alhamdulillah and I'm ready to continue my degree.
I am totally happy and feel so bless.

perit la weih .

2008-12-22T11:52:00.000-08:00

Kemut-kemut. Denyut-denyut. Sakit sebenarnya, tapi serius semalam tak sakit sangat.

Bontot aku dan circle dimata aku ni membuatkan aku tak boleh tidur la you all.

Tadi dah lena dibuai mimpi, tapi mimpi yang tak indah. Aku mimpi ada kereta nak langgar aku. Pala hotak hang. Perlu ka mimpi macam tuh? Haha.

Tak sabar nak sambung pengajian di menara gading. Rindu boobies sekalian, nak gomol-gomol.

Geeeeez.

Nite you all. Aku dah ketandusan, kurang orgasm rasanya.

novel khayalan .

2008-12-22T07:35:00.000-08:00

Aku pesan awal-awal. Siapa geli dan muntah, JANGAN BACA!

Hari ni keluar dengan baby best sangat. Teman B pergi sana sini. Bukanlah pergi mana pun, sebab sume macam emergency je kan. Tapi sayang tetap rasa amat disayangi. Baby bawa sayang pergi klinik, sebab sayang demam and 'accident' tuh. Hanya kita berdua saja tau accident apa. Kikikiki. B amek cuti tiba-tiba, semata-mata sebab sayang. Sayang terharu sangat tau. Baby angkat beg sayang, even berat pun. B hantar sayang balik Taiping tadi. Masa sayang dah naik bas, sayang teringat lagu Mariah Carey yang Without You (Ken Liiiiii). Rindunya kat B tau. Rendu sangat.

Whatever happen yesterday, memang, in deed, a very big lesson for us. Sayang harap hubungan kita berkekalan sampai kita dapat tengok masing-masing menjadi tua. Dan dapat tengok cucu kita masuk universiti. Tau baby tau. (Ish, sendiri geli pulak.)

Ikhlas nih, no more fighting, no more arguments. Sayang baby sehingga akhir hayat. Tak pernah tengok baby sedih teruk macam semalam. And sayang tau, B pon sayang sayang jugak. I can see it, i can feel it.

Sayang berbunga-bunga riang nih. Dah lama tak rasa macam ni. Dah 2 tahun 2 bulan 16 hari 'kapal selam' kita, and still counting ! Bukan sekejap. Macam-macam dah kita sama-sama get through. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Only you baby, only you. Sobs. I miss you already. Miss you so bad. Miss your laugh and tears, miss your warm nice smell.

p/s: I LOVE YOU.

2008-12-22T05:36:00.000-08:00

one hell day,

yet heaven in the end.

sambal tumis petai .

2008-12-20T13:50:00.000-08:00

Aku dah habis diploma beb. Cuak menunggu hari untuk sambung pembelajaran di degree nanti. Dah lama tak pegang buku dan tak belajar banyak subjek. Cuak tak kawan-kawan? Semalam aku ajar Jijo solat istikharah, dia tak tau nak pilih course apa untuk degree, so aku bagi la opinion baiiiik punya. "Terima kasih ustazah," kata Jijo kepada aku.

Apabila fikir, selalu orang cakap, masa belajar paling seronok. Hell no. Mungkin sebenarnya masa paling seronok, waktu kita ada kawan untuk habiskan semua masa bersama. Clubbing sama-sama, mabuk sama-sama. Mabuk cinta okay, jangan salah faham. Hehe.

Belajar memang tak pernah seronok. Honestly. Lagi-lagi exam + assignments + Pekjah = nasib malang.

Sorang hitam, sorang kelabu, coklat, pendek, buncit, busuk, alim, tahi, gemuk, kaya keding, syaitan, banyak jari, tetek, gay..... semua serba cacat.

But, in these 3 years, these bunch of assholes yang buat aku hidup.

Aku sambung Journalism. Best ke? Moga-moga best dan seronok. Yang penting, aku tak nak jumpa Pekjah dah. Aku dah tak larat. Tapi kalau lalu sebelah-sebelah di fakulti nanti, aku tegur la. Cakap, "Terima kasih Pekjah bagi saya result gempak." Hehe. I don't want to be rude.

Aku rindu Puncak? Hum. Tak kot. Belum lagi nak rindu. Thankful tak study kat situ dah. Aku tak suka berkecimpung dengan budak-budak performing arts sana tuh, aku suka Farid Kamil saja. Sorry, aku memang tak suka. Hehe. No offence.

Penat dan rindu. Aku rindu Taiping dan bukan apa-apa selain itu.

cerita nenek india ketuk tingkap Fatt .

2008-12-19T01:52:00.000-08:00

Hari ini i demam, selsema dan batuk. Pakej lengkap lah tu kiranya. Ada siapa-siapa yang simpati dengan i tak? Di saat ini i teringat pada suatu hari i di Klang selepas bermalam di rumah Fatt si boobies, kami berempat (i, Dedek, Fatt dan Mimi) bertolak dari Klang mahu pergi ke gathering di Garden's yang boleh di katakan ala-ala alumni Seri Puteri yang tak menjadi.

Maka dalam perjalanan, sesuatu yang menarik telah berlaku, di mana, seorang nenek berbangsa India terbongkok-bongkok di tengah jalan berdekatan traffic light. Fatt memberhentikan Unsernya kerana traffic light menunjukkan warna merah. Tiba-tiba, nenek tua tadi mengetuk tingkap cermin kereta di sebelah pemandu, lebih spesifik, tingkap seat Fatt. Hum. Fatt terkejut beruk, beruk pun tidak pernah terkejut seperti itu. Hehe. I hiperbola sikit.

Nenek India tersebut mahu menumpang sehingga ke seberang jalan rupanya. Dia tidak berdaya memandangkan dia membawa beras seberat 2 kilogram dan juga beberapa tin susu pekat. Kami memang baik hati, lalu menumpangkan nenek tersebut. Walaupun pada mulanya, i cakap,"JANGANLAH!"

Yang menjadikan cerita ini lebih menarik adalah apabila si nenek tua itu bertanya, "Kamu tadak semayang ka?" konon ingat kami ni Chinese. I tau lah muka i macam cina. Campur pula kanak-kanak lain dalam Unser yang sememangnya muka seperti 'manusia makan babi'.

KAMI ISLAM, serentak berkata-kata.

Nenek tua itu tak faham juga agaknya, di offernya kami membeli nombor ekor pula. Anak si nenek tua menang nombor ekor lalu tidak mempedulikannya, cerita si nenek tua dalam slanga India.

Aku tak pernah beli nombor ekor tau Fatt, sumpah!

Kami pun dropkan lah nenek tua itu, disebabkan itu lah kami lambat ke gathering atau boleh dikatakan jumpa-jumpa kecilan. Haaaaa, macam itu lah ceritanya. Best kan?

video rogol .

2008-12-08T13:39:00.000-08:00

I tak boleh tidur sebab i sesungut (period pain).
So i melayari youtube. Ini memang macam gampang weih !

cicak dan lipas .

2008-12-08T11:33:00.000-08:00

Antara cicak dan lipas mana yang lagi geli bagi anda semua?

Bagi i, i lagi sangat sensitif tehadap lipas sebab lipas hanya ada di tempat-tempat yang kotor. Dan yang terbaik, i ada history yang tak boleh dilupakan dengan lipas tak berguna nih.

And this one particular person, dia tak suka cicak. Haaaa, you know who you are. Geli jerit-jerit beb! Histerically jumping around sebab cicak. I pun geli juga dengan cicak but I still manage to kill it.

Dengan lipas pun i boleh bunuh tapi apabila berhadapan dengan lipas bulu roma i extra meremang. Kalau nampak dekat kedai makan, i memang tak senang duduk. Kalau lipas itu datang dekat i, memang i menggelupur macam sawan babi punya. Haha.

Gambar di bawah didedikasikan kepada anda yang takut cicak. Ini cicak paling extravaganza geli yang i pernah jumpa dalam hidup i. I freak out gila bila nampak. Sampai meremang bulu jubur i skali.

tadi i mimpi .

2008-12-08T11:29:00.000-08:00

U guys nak tau tak?

Tadi i mimpi i dinner ngan mak mertua i.

Hebatnya mimpi itu. I rasa macam nak gigit diri sendiri saja.

Lembu korban, jangan anda terkorban .

2008-12-08T08:53:00.000-08:00

Ini semalam, di malam Hari Raya Aidiladha, ketika Abah sedang sibuk membakar lemang di belakang. Achor pun sibuk membakar ayam (barbeque). Konon-konon kita orang nak impress la tuh. Sorry sikit. Berikutan api di sana sini. Aku ambil mercun bola yang sebesar telur ayam dan aku letupkan. Pergh!! Kuat gila! Boom!

merotte ada kat fakulti ?

2008-12-08T08:00:00.000-08:00

Aku selalu kacau Sofia, apabila jam menunjukkan tepat pukul 12 malam. Sofia akan berbicara dengan aku dan aku akan membuat mimik muka berhantu.

''Sofia cakap dengan siapa? Aku bukan Merotte, Merotte ada dekat fakulti. Cuba tengok,'' aku akan cakap dalam nada yang seram gila, sampai Sofia takut. Haha. Aku rindu dow nak kacau dia!

Memandangkan apartmen tumpangan kami memang betul-betul sebelah fakulti, Sofia memang takut apabila aku mula start pandang ke arah fakulti, dia tau la tuh aku nak buat joke MEROTTE ADA KAT FAKULTI pada pagi-pagi buta itu.

So satu hari tuh, di rumah, aku bosan gila nak mati. I decided to do the trick to Achor. Ok aku nak buat hantu congkak. Hehe. Kalau Sofia kena ni dia mesti takut gila.

Semua orang dah tidur while Achor will be online 24/7 playing that poker in Facebook which he is soooo addicted to. Tengah malam buta pukul 4 pagi. Aku pergi main congkak seorang diri.

Krak Krak Krrrrrrr. Krak Krak Krrrrrrr. Krak Krak Krrrrrrr.

Lepas tuh, aku pergi lari dekat Achor.

''Achor! Achor! Kau dengar tak bunyi orang main congkak? Siapa yang main? Semua orang dah tidur!,'' aku memang hebat berlakon. Aku tengok muka Achor ada sedikit cuak tapi dia malas nak layan aku.

Aku ulang lagi kasi lagi cuak. Aku menegaskan apa yang aku dengar.

Lepas tuh aku buat ala-ala kena histeria gitu. Achor pandang aku, muka ala-ala hantu gitu, aku pula yang cuak.

Ha-ha. Achor kata, ''Kau nih tak ada kerja lain ke?''

Damn. Aku rindu nak kacau Sofia.

Antara kekasih dan futsal .

2008-12-05T05:37:00.000-08:00

Kenapa kadang- kadang futsal menjadi rival kepada girlfriend anda? Kerana futsal, to us, is like your second girlfriend which we envy so much. Apa lebihnya futsal dengan aku ni? Sometimes I wonder.

I don't have any problem with futsal anymore sebab aku dah malas nak layan. Dah malas nak argue and until a point that you can't win yourself over this futsal. To the extend that i will say, "Ouh, baby nak pergi futsal? Elok-elok yer. Jgn notty-notty''.

So sampai the BF will eventually feel weird in a way that my GF doesn't really angry anymore. Maka lama-lama he will slow down on futsal and some how be back to you. Haha.

Chill okay Lala sayang? Apek loves you okay. Confirm! Affirmative! He needs space. That's all. And nak tau tak, atleast Apek pergi main futsal, and teka lah Sam pergi mana tonight??????

KARAOKE ?!!! Duh! And guess how I responded, ''Ouh, iyer ke baby? Elok-elok. (Ayat biasa tuh) Have fun!''.

Hahahahahaha. Chill chill! Chill kepada mu dan kepada aku juga.

Jangan emosi okay. I'm always here for you, no matter what. Pergi mati sama futsal. Love you much much.

masa ni aku gemuk macam bola !

2008-12-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

This youtube video was made for the sake of mr Nik Ramzi subject. He already gave me 40 upon 50. I've put every effort in it. So people, enjoy this video and do leave some comments. I know it might be interesting to some of u and it might be not ; but whatever it is, i'm confirmed that this video is absolutely super cute because i'm in it. Thank you.

Respond from my lecturer for Egocentric & Megalomaniac:

Love your cute, lively & bubbly appearance...ditto your supporting casts/buddies/extras.
Nice script & narration...so at ease.
Good & kreatif camera works/shots...espspecially inside the car at the end.
Editing quite jumpy though....at the beginning.
Niceeeeee...(Borat)

Originality (8/10)

Video (8/10)

Audio & Music (8/10)

Script (8/10)

Editing (8/10)

Total: (40/50)

Ikhlas.

En. Nik Ramzi

PMS ?

2008-12-04T06:45:00.000-08:00

Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS)

The term PMS stands for Premenstrual Syndrome, a familiar acronym used to describe a cyclical challenge with a confusing array of physical, emotional or behavioral responses experienced by an amazingly large number of women every month in the days and even weeks before their menstrual periods begin. In spite of widespread myth, misinformation and politically incorrect sexist jokes, the truth about PMS is that it is real-as real as any other legitimately recognized physical condition with a combination of physical and emotional responses that are all too often dismissed as trivial. In fact, PMS responses are known to challenge health, change normal routine and impact lifestyle. www.midlife-passages.com

Ini adalah PMS!! Dan serius ok! Bukan main-main. Most of the woman in the world are having this syndrome including me and all of my friends. Ngeeeee. So to all guys out there, please be more concern about your girlfriend's mental health. Haha. Learn more about this. This can really effect big time.

Aku PMS sekarang ini faham tak?

Maka jangan cari pasal dengan aku okay?

fucking faces !

2008-12-04T06:35:00.000-08:00

Emosi macam puki. Akhirnya sendiri menyesali.

Tidur macam esok tiada lagi. Sendiri tak sedar diri.

Streamyx kadang-kadang macam babi.
Nak main poker pun susah hati. (sebab 5ribu duit aku dah habis)

Kenapa semua macam puki dan babi?

mangsa 1 .

2008-12-02T00:44:00.000-08:00

This was the moment when I am super bored. So what did I do?
I shampooed Achor's hair. Cool eyh. Always imagine myself at a salloon and do stuff like that. Haha. My child hood dream. And it's become an obsession and hobby now which eventually I will give pleasure with massaging people's head. Haha.

takuit .

2008-11-27T09:31:00.000-08:00

Aku dapat peluang untuk meluahkan perasaan pada dia tadi tapi aku lepaskan peluang macam tu saja. Betapa lama aku tunggu dia online.

Takut. It’s so hard the word sorry to slip from my mouth. I'm sorry and I really mean it.

I just want everything to be settled.

Aku rindu! There I said it.

I don't hate you. Tak pernah sekali pun aku rasa atau sebut perkataan benci.

Please dear God, give me strength.

chunky, big, plumpy, round.

2008-11-27T08:17:00.000-08:00

This character in Madagascar 2 really turns me on! Macho beb! Big muscular hot hippo. Haha. Gemuk dan bulat. One hot hunky hippo! Presenting Moto Moto, why Moto Moto and not Moto? Because the name so nice so you say it twice. (I like the way he say it! Damn hot!)

This clip is soooo 'Moto Moto' = 'Hot Hot'

aku adalah kau, dan kau adalah aku .

2008-11-25T08:58:00.000-08:00

Aku baru saja lepas delete entri-entri yang aku tulis beberapa purnama yang lalu. Jangan tanya kenapa. It keeps running in mind head pasal benda-benda remeh yang sudah berlalu. So to get rid of it, I wanted to delete it from my system and my blog tooo.

Terima kasih semua.

i'm a night person .

2008-11-24T18:50:00.000-08:00

I woke up early in the morning, feeling fresh but lemau.

I tried to do something useful in the morning.

But I am totally useless in the morning.

I am active and hyper at night, especially when I stayed up till lateeee.

Damn! How can I change this.

aku rindu tak tertahan .

2008-11-24T11:17:00.000-08:00

Senyuman (A song for my beloved husband) - Sue Anna Joe (Vocals & Lyrics) Guitar (GarageBand)

Ku lihat bintang di waktu malam, sungguh indah bergermelapan, teringat aku satu senyuman, yang tak mungkin aku lupakan.

Oh Indahnya, ciptaan Tuhan, membuat hati aku tertawan, tapi malang, dimilik orang, aku hanya mampu mengenang.

Ku lihat langit di waktu siang, sang suria terang-benderang, aku rasa sungguh riang, bila mendapat satu panggilan, ku dengar suara berkata sayang, aku rindu tak tertahan.

Rupanya, ku pemilik senyuman, terlalu indah ku ingat angan. ku lihat bintang di waktu malam, sungguh indah bergermelapan, aku berada di dalam kayangan, dibuai cinta yang mengasyikkan.

geeeezzz. u know u love me.

2008-11-22T03:34:00.000-08:00

Cik Piah wrote me this note. Sweet kan? Heeeeee. Cair I baca noq! Cik Piah pesan baca note ni once I'm arrived Taiping but I already forgot about this note. Dah baca! U are so sweeeeet like candy dear Fia.

aktiviti semasa cuti .

2008-11-21T02:42:00.000-08:00

Sleep at 6am.
Wakey wakey at 6pm.
Lunch. Heh.
Internet surfing. Internet is power beb!
DVD marathon.

Then jadi psychoooooooo.

Ridy tanya aku ketika berYahoo Messenger, "Apa buat di rumah?"

Aku jawab, "Baru lepas lunch (ketika jam menunjukkan pukul 5pm), tergolek-golek macam katak, tak keluar rumah langsung, ANTI SOCIAL!!!"

Ouh yeah! Perfect bukan?

jiwang karat-karat kuning .

2008-11-19T12:53:00.000-08:00

Through the fire, through the rain.
Through the joy and the pain.
Through the fights,
through the change.
Through the nights,
through the days.
My love remains the same.
Yes baby, always the same.

seperti ku bernafas dalam air .

2008-11-19T12:27:00.000-08:00

I'm not a perfect girl.

My hair doesn't always stay in place and I spill things a lot.

I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have a broken heart.

My friends and I sometimes fight and may be some days nothing goes right.

But when I think about it and take a step back I remember how amazing life truly is and that may be, just may be, I like being imperfect.

My die hard fan 2.

2008-11-19T06:24:00.000-08:00

Mimi (bukan baragas)
U like to call me as: Tantalau. Hmm, merootttt. (ada tone yg mimi and lala suka buat tu)
Song that suits me: Cantik menarik tertarik kau memang tembam!
Gift for me: Samantha.
You want me to be your: Teman dunia akhirat.
Advice for me: Suka sangat membabi.
U like or hate me?: Lurveeee ya !

Mimi tidak lagi tergolong dalam golongan baragas kerana beliau sudah mereply soalan cepu mas yang ditanya oleh aku yang cantik lagi jelita. Samantha is not a gift ok nonoq!

My die hard fan.

2008-11-18T22:19:00.000-08:00

Lala
U like to call me as: Ketiaq.
Song that suits me: Sekuntum mawar merah.
Gift for me: Vibrator or dildo.
You want me to be your: Besh fwen / Pengapit.
Advice for me: Don't drink and drive.
U like or hate me?: Cayunk!!!

Sofia
U like to call me as: Meyot, Meskot.
Song that suits me: When I grow up! Shake your booty.
Gift for me: Pink thong. Uuuh. Kinky weyh!
You want me to be your: Meskot? Haha. My jelitawan.
Advice for me: You gonna be so fucking thin!
U like or hate me?: I like you more when you are not sleeping. Haha.

Ayu
U like to call me as: Merotte chanteq.
Song that suits me: A whole new world, lagu-lagu rakyat la bak kata Sofia.
Gift for me: Surprise.
You want me to be your: Beshtest buddy!
Advice for me: Bangun awal sikit merotte. Berdugong saja and GAMBATEH ??kg! Merotte bakal cantik dan slim.
U like or hate me?: Love you! Muah!

Danny
U like to call me as: Merotte Mahawangsa
Song that suits me: Chantek
Gift for me: A friendship?
You want me to be your: Forever friend
Advice for me: Hurry up, loose weight!!
U like or hate me?: I like you nonox. Haha.

Kesimpulannya di sini, kawan-kawan aku semua kinky weyh! Nak bagi thong, vibrator and dildo!! Haha. Masalah tidur aku juga menjadi masalah negara kepada mereka kerana mereka susah nak kejut aku. And thanks ya kawan-kawan kerana support aku nak jadi kurus dan hot seperti Angelina Jolie (idola nih). Ingat nih, if I'm not effin thin when I see you guys in the future, silalah bantai aku ok! Jangan tidur melampau dan kekurusan (azam baru)!!

p/s: Soalan cepu mas ini telah di hantar kepada 3 lagi rakan, tetapi tiada jawapan. Baragas punya kawan-kawan.

2008-11-18T21:37:00.000-08:00

Kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
Sepi... sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau dipasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja engkau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri
Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang ditembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai

p/s: Sila baca puisi ini dengan nada sedih sekali. Sedih. Sedih.

ah! tak boleh lupa ni!

2008-11-17T13:42:00.000-08:00

Suatu pagi buta yang hening, di mana Shawal membawa daun terup masam bau stokin ke rumah Lala. Selepas bersantapan seperti raja sehari ketika open house di rumah Lala dan selepas menunggu kehadiran Zeti serta Shawal sekembalinya dari futsal, kami pun bermain poker.

Aku, Shawal dan Zahid. Haaaaa, siapa kalah kena minum air yang di bancuh oleh Lala. Banyak ok air tuh. First round, second round, aku masih steady. Zahid menang saja, menyampah! Aku bersaing dengan Si Shawal.

Introduction, Shawal kalah dulu maka dia lah makhluk pertama yang kena minum air yang bergelen tuh.

Conclusion, aku yang asyik kena minum towards the end. Seriousshit masa yang akhir tuh aku dah bergenang air mata kerana tak sangka aku akan kalah lagi. Damn!

The last round yang aku dah bertakung air mata, rupa-rupanya makhluk dua ekor itu mahu pedajal aku, mereka ambil kad-kad yang baik punya dan bagi aku kad yang hampagas. Mentang-mentang aku kena pergi bancuh air untuk orang yang kalah, which means untuk aku sendiri! Duhhh! So mereka mengambil peluang untuk memperkotak-katikkan aku bagi kad teruk.

Damn you !

Banyak aku minum, terkujat aku lari toilet nak kencing saja memanjang. Hampagas!

bontot pedih .

2008-11-17T13:27:00.000-08:00

Apabila tahi keluar bersama dengan cili yang pedas ketika berry-berry, memang pedih. Ah! Pedih, pedas dan pijar. Heeee.

Ok, that's not the point. Tiba-tiba pada pagi yang kelam lagi sejuk ni, aku teringat di suatu senja ketika menghantar Piran ke UIA, dia mengajar kata-kata kesat yang tujuannya untuk dilemparkan kepada foreigners atau nigga-nigga di kawasan UIA....

"Hey you fucking faces ! Eat shit ! "

Selepas drop Piran, aku terus hamburkan kata-kata yang di ajar tadi kepada Si Piran. Huuuu. Ingat tak nonoq sekalian??? Oouuchh, how I cherish and miss this moment.....

sambungan Eros .

2008-11-17T13:14:00.001-08:00

Short film ini sangat gay okay. Uuuuh, kinky !

eros movie rembesan !

2008-11-17T13:08:00.000-08:00

Hasil kerja Broadcasting semester 5 collaboration with Yidzak Selamat. Theee Hee Hee. Shooting di Port Dickson, bersama ahli kumpulan ; Merotte, Wady, Tania, Alia dan Iylia. Berjaya merangkul markah 96/100 daripada Encik Nik Ramzi. Sambungan berada di atas.

my favourite playlist !

2008-11-16T03:24:00.000-08:00

Kipas-Susah-Mati saya. Yeah, sangat best ini lagu !

Give You The World by The D.E.Y
Can't Let You Go by Fabolous feat Lil Mo.
Shorty Like Mine by Bow Wow feat Chris Brown.

I'm listening to it over and over and over again.

anti-climax. grrrrrr.

2008-11-16T02:59:00.000-08:00

My hair fall problem has gone and now I'm back with my sleeping habit which is tidur macam burung hantu. Hehe. Holiday is back tapi aku ketakutan nak menunggu result exam. Sumpah takut. Can i make it through the rain??? Takut beb.

Suddenly i remember a newspaper cutting which was given by mama, sebab aku suka tidur sangat.

"being asleep means hours 'gone' that should be spent living and doing. Because there just aren't enough hours in the day. Because sleeping is a lot like dying...."

Every time when i woke up late in the evening, eventually i will read this and it will make me think back that I'm getting older and i need to spend my time with quality things to do. We never know what will happen tomorrow, may be we'll die in our sleep.

Haish, think people think!

mari kita meniaga :0)

2008-11-15T13:14:00.000-08:00

Malam tadi aku di undang ke party MLM. Aku suka part yang makan tu. Syiok.

Apa itu MLM? Alaaaa, yang biasa orang dengar tu, orang yang bagi talk tu mesti nak bawa kereta paling koman pun BMW. To prove to people that they are successful. Marilah jadi kaya seperti kami, kata mereka. MLM, multilevel marketing. Apa yang aku faham tentang MLM, it's the kind of business yang orang yang ranking paling atas akan jadi paling kaya. Am i right? But abang yang bagi talk tu kacak, sooo aku berminat la dengar. Macam best. Can earn money by finding about 8 people. The name of the company can not be mention, tapi yang aku tau, pernah bankrupt dulu. Hehe. Aku tak join pon. Yang penting, abang tu kacak, nanti kita roger yeh bang.

Ok ok. Sekarang ramai orang nak jual barang through internet kan. Macam cendawan yang tumbuh selepas hujan. Di sana sini, jual cupcakes, clothes, accessories, shoes dan macam-macam lagi lah. Suka tengok. Semangat mahu jadi peniaga yang berwawasan. Si Uted yang mahu ke Paris, mari-mari lihat barang jualan si Uted, And the stuff yang TERBAIK yang aku amat gemar, THE CUSTOM DESIGNED shoes by pdaos. Cool. Siapa mau beli? Mai mai !

hari ini hari kau ; esok hari aku

2008-11-11T13:35:00.000-08:00

Setiap orang ada hari sedih dan gembira masing-masing.

Hari ini hari sedih saya.

Hari ini hari pilu saya.

Hari ini hari air mata saya.

Esok hari happy saya.

Saya nak tinggalkan hari sedih saya.

Jangan ikut saya. Saya tak mahu hari yang sedih.

Esok hari happy saya. Hari-hari yang akan datang adalah hari happy saya 8)

Peace to all homo sapiens .

smokin hot !

2008-11-01T15:47:00.000-07:00

Kimora Lee Simmons .

reminiscing the past .

2008-10-31T14:46:00.000-07:00

It's November for god sake. Ah! Dah nak the end of 2008. And yet I'm still fat like a bomb. I'm gonna be effin thin ok. I want a healthy life. I want to wake up early every morning.

Ouh ya, tadi sofia cakap muka aku sama macam Kimora Lee Simmons. Hehe. Nak terkeluar lubang jubur aku. Mungkin aku dah kurus sikit 8)

Hum. All of sudden, apabila aku pandang bunga yang dah kering dalam bilik cha ini, aku teringat kali terakhir aku dapat bunga. Hum, dah lama dah. Lama sangat dah. Tak ada siapa nak bagi bunga.

Nak bunga rose, pink in colour.

I need love, give me some love.

artis-artis malaya .

2008-10-25T17:05:00.000-07:00

Saya dan si comel. Serius shawal ni comel.

Ouh, Azwin Andy, sangat hotttttt!

good moarning .

2008-10-25T15:43:00.000-07:00

Firstly I would like to tell everyone that my buasir is back. Hehe. Kidding. I have minor sickness and it didn't wreck my final presentation and I hope it wouldn't be a problem for my final examination too.

I can't breath. My trakea is blocking the air. It's not flu but I can't breath easy. I'm having this lil fever too because of this sore throat. Even my neck is swollen. It's not that big but it's puffing out. Geez, pretty scary huh?

As for today, suddenly I realized that I need to apologize to someone. Well it happen when she SUDDENLY being normal to me. Talk to me as in there is nothing bad had happen before even laughing with me. I don't know how to judge the way she act to me. She even YMing with me. I need to explain to her for the things that I’ve done (it's nothing bad, it happen with reasons) but I couldn't because I don't have the guts. To be exact, I miss her. I want things to be back to normal and I know she wanted the same. Ok, so I’m planning to write her a letter. Ecece 8)

So for my other friend, whom I can say was one of my BFF (you can still assume me as your BFF, I don't mind), she might think that she was neglected by us. Well, you are avoiding us and to pay you back, we did the same thing. If you wanted to be Serena Van Der Woodson then we are Blair Waldorf, you will suffer the most tragic ever. Hope you realize being an asshole is not such a good idea. Everyone is talking bad things about you, even cursing you. Enthusiasm rush over me and it makes me feel so good when I heard that you hardly believe that you were not invited to one of the meeting. Is it one meets up? Or all?

We are not the type that will worship and bow, like you are the queen of Egypt. By being too choosy about friends is really unacceptable. Now you can live alone in your world with your own 'classy' friends. Ouh, are there any friends left?

Need to sleep!!! Chuck Bass is waiting in my dream.

Okay so long.

Mornite (morning + nite) to everyone.

setiap hari main daun terup .

2008-10-14T13:18:00.000-07:00

Daun terup saya yang lusuh.

Sekarang saya dan seisi rumah di Puncak Neraka yang terdiri daripada Ayu, Danny, Dewi, Sofia (penumpang sampingan 1), Alisya (penumpang sampingan 2) dan saya sendiri (penumpang sampingan 3) kerap bermain daun terup (poker la yer). Live punya, tak main la kat dalam facebook tu. Sekupang dua modal boleh jadi dua ringgit. Okay what?

Hehe. Penjudi hebat. Tapi tak boleh beat achor si penjudi kental.

And sifu terhebat adalah Ayu dan Dewi dan kadang-kadang Sofia. Tetapi tadi setelah saya menang beberapa round ketika threesome bersama Ayu dan Danny, sesuatu yang di luar jangkaan terjadi. Di mana Ayu tidak sedar bahawa kad-kad saya dan Danny sudah habis. Maka Ayu kalahlah kan. Dia menerima tamparan hebat. Sambil ketawa berguling. Ayu mengalirkan air mata kerana tidak percaya (Ok ok, sebab dia ada straight flush). So dia tidak sempat menunjukkan kehebatannya.

Ayu menangis sambil gelak. Tapi betul niiiiiii, dia nangis la !
Hehe. Kelakar kan kami !

p/s: Cha tak tahu main daun terup nih. Kan Cha?

hari ini dalam sejarah .

2008-10-13T13:26:00.000-07:00

Saya memotong rambut saya yang panjang dan cantik. Ditemani oleh 2 orang cewek yang tidak kurang hebatnya, Cik Sofia dan Cik Alisya. Ah, rambut ku terasa ringan. Tiada lagi masalah rambut. So everyone, jika ada masalah rambut, senang saja solutionnya, potong saja okay.

Apa macam? Cun tak? Anak sapa la ni?

Mereka sibuk bergambar ketika rambut saya sedang disapu oleh si cina.

babi guling guling .

2008-10-12T14:02:00.000-07:00

Selepas bersarapan di Impiana KLCC bersama Si Cinta, Cha, Kechik dan Nisak. Bersiap-siap dan meneruskan hari bersama Si Cinta. Hari yang indah bersama Si Cinta hari ini. Pergi ke open house Encik Naza (bos Si Cinta) di Nilai (jauh babi). Dalam perjalanan, lalu di sebelah SSP Cyber. Haish, rindu sekolah amat. Nak jadi muda kembali. Ya, seperti biasa, i ate a lot. Dan sekarang aku masih kekenyangan.

Masa breakfast dah makan amat banyak. Dan tambah pula dengan makanan di open house. Maka, aku jadi bola.

Ok, sebenarnya aku mahu post blog tentang Malam Pra Graduan (MPG). Mari mari kita cerita tentang MPG.

Semalam sangat menarik kerana aku mendapat pujian ramai. Katanya seperti Saloma gitu. Mana tidaknya, dengan sanggul yang lebih besar daripada kepala aku. Tak pe. Yang penting, aku dan Si Cinta kelihatan sedondon dan bergaya.

Comment tentang MPG, hmmmm, OK la, bagi aku, biasa saja event kami itu. Atleast i have fun. Dengan persembahan tarian yang aku lupa step. Si Cinta tengok pula. Malu nyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Aku amat penat, after event kena angkut semua barang-barang kembali ke Shah Alam. Semua dah stress ketika itu. Kesian kepada rakan-rakan yang tak dapat menjamu selera kerana menjaga event. Aku bersama Sofia, Dewi, Ayu, Danny dan Nisak sebagai biro reception and decoration (Ye ke biro tuh, tak ingat) mengangkut semua barang-barang yang di pinjam ke loading bay. Kesian Si Cinta, terpaksa pulang seorang dahulu.

Fun lah jugak MPG. Ada Estranged, hehe, aku ambil gambar bersama Andy yang kacak. Akan di post later.

Ok ok, aku sudah mengantuk. Sambung kemudian.

Selamat malam dunia.

a greeting card .

2008-07-20T12:30:00.000-07:00

As i was doing the same damn thing I've been doing for this last few weeks, which is shopping. I was stunned by this greeting card. The wordings is beautiful.

You are the sparkle in my life.
With you my world's complete.
From the first time that I saw you,
i knew our hearts would meet.

I'll always be beside you.
And love you more each day.
You are my one true satellite.
And cherished you will stay.

So sweet kan? I know it's just a typical love card but the hell i care, it is still sweet like candy. Ouh, and the satellite part tu macam a bit weird. Whatever lah. This one, I dedicate to you, my love, where ever you are. Thee he he.

a tragedy .

2008-07-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

It is in deed a tragic tragedy which I never saw it coming. It comes straight to my face. Now I'm at my weakest and my deepest wound. When I'm all alone in my room, eventually don't know what to do, I will cry, sobbing slowly. And that's all I can do. Being sick and stuck in my room doing nothing but dozing off with all the pills that doctor gave to me.

No one to talk to, no one to listen. All I have are the pillows that i can kick and throw to the wall. Please give me my stimulant, I can't walk, I can't talk. I'm half dead inside. Pretending to be okay in front of my parents. Pretending to be happy.

I curse you. Yes, you! For killing my soul.

What will you do if you caught your BF is cheating on you ?

2008-06-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

You dump him immediately? Run him over by a car? Stab him for 20 times?

Or crying all day long and don't know what to do? Just being silly.

It is karma. What goes around comes around. If you do something bad, you will get bad things in return. Be loyal to your partner.

You will feel pathetic if you don't have BF, because all your friends have one. But when you have one, you feel like being single is so fucking better.

Life is unfair.

If you treat your BF/GF like trash, one day you will be treated like one. Cherish what you have. Cherish the people who love you. Find someone who loves you more than you love yourself, find someone who can't live without you.

p/s: I Love You. Ah! Silly me.

the good old days .

2008-06-22T13:11:00.000-07:00

This photo was taken when i was in form 2. Super slim and cute. Hmm, still cute now and extra comel off course. I miss school. Miss all the band thingy. Miss everything in SSP. Sobs.

holiday . yawn !

2008-05-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

Holiday tak balik Taiping. Mama bising. But i'm doing something worth it. For real ni Ma. Trust me. Miss home. Rindu bangat, tapi if balik, the activity will always be the same which are sleeping and eating. And i'm going to be fat like a pig.

At least i'm doing something. Kan kan? And tak ada lah aku waste time. Today one whole day tak mandi but then i'm still going out to see the world. Hehe. Sampai Putrajaya tuh. Helping Lala with her work.

Okay. Actually malas babi nak tulis blog. But then, sangat rasa nak mengumpat. Haih, perangai masih tak berubah. I don't like this girl. Don't have to mention her name. Sebab apa aku tak suka dia? Firstly sebab dia macam suka copy apa aku buat. Second, dia macam nak mengada yang dia macam best. Third, apa aku makan mesti dia nak sikit (pergi beli sendiri lah). Ah! Stressnya. Cepatlah kau hilang daripada pandangan aku ini. Dan banyak lagi, 3 reasons cukup lah.

hari-hari jadi burung hantu .

2008-05-15T16:13:00.000-07:00

Everyday saya tidur pukul 7am and kadang-kadang lebih lambat dari itu. Woke up at 4pm. Ouh, kadang-kadang sampai 7pm baru bangun. Burung hantu yang hebat.

And selalunya saya tak berpeluang untuk menikmati cahaya matahari langsung.
Untuk sesiapa yang ada ubat untuk penyakit burung hantu ini. Sila hubungi saya.

Tak larat hidup begini. Bilalah saya mahu dapat one sweet day seperti orang normal. Ouh hari ini extra sedikit. Menemani incik John Hafiz yang terkandas di office dengan berYahoo Messenger bersama beliau.

Mari layan porn wahai rakan-rakan sehingga mata saya terlelap.

pita rancak jiwangan 4.

2008-05-15T14:38:00.000-07:00

ouh, ring my bells. Saya sangat horny jika mendengar ini lagu.

hasil peniruan .

2008-05-06T22:15:00.001-07:00

This is my desktop which currently very messy and like shit. Hey people! My exam disaster moment finish already. Mari kelabing! p/s: Syuk, aku pun nak tunjuk desktop aku gak. Thee he he.

lusa exam.

2008-04-22T14:26:00.000-07:00

Final exam nak mula. 25 April 2008. First paper, Fundamentals of Entrepreneurship. Aku tak study apa-apa pun lagi. Tak larat. Malas. Aku mula mencari James Deanku sebagai stimulant hari ini.

Berwebcam dengan Lala. Seronok menggoyangkan punggung depan webcam. Tapi lama-lama bosan. I need my stimulant!

Pukul 4 pagi, webcam tak berfungsi. Laptop cacat. Tak dapat aku bergoyang-goyang punggung depan webcam. Kembali bosan.

Tak apa. Esok masih ada.

Syuk dan Dove sudah melayari bahtera. Kena kejut mereka jam 6 pagi. Aku yang konon-konon study akan kejut mereka berdua. Good luck untuk paper esok wahai rakan-rakan Architect ku!

Dan aku akan tidur nyenyak di saat kamu semua tengah struggle nak jawab paper tu.

Lusa kamu semua tidur nyenyak pula okay!

Sekarang, aku mahu berak. Sayonara.

persembahan taik oleh dove dan syuk tercinta .

2008-04-22T11:16:00.000-07:00

Pukul 1 pagi di teratak mewah Kelana Jaya. Aku turun seorang diri pergi ke 7e and mcd to grab sekotak Peter Stuyvesant and refill coke. Haha. Pathetic. Tak ada sen nak beli coke, tapi nak sangat minum. Refill sudah!

Syuk period pain, tak mahu teman aku. Tak pe, aku dah biasa dah turun seorang diri. Siapa nak kacau aku pun. Hujan pulak dah, pinjam payung pak guard sebab nak jugak minum coke. Ouh dan sangap! Tak sabar mahu menghembus Peter Petrelli.

On my way back, tekan lif. And sangat babi, ada taik bersepah dalam lif. Taik cirit. Haram jadah mana pergi berak dalam lif. Tingkat 11. Aku fikir lama sambil makan ice cream Sundae, nak naik tangga ke? Nak masuk juga dalam lif taik tuh? Shit!

Aku tekan lagi, the same lif juga yang buka. Babi! Dengan pantas aku sms Syuk.

Aku: "Tolong tekan lif turun."

Dalam 1 minit aku tunggu, tak turun jugak.

Aku sms lagi: "Weih. Cepatlah. Turunlah kejap. Lif tak berfungsi."

Aku tahu Syuk mesti cuak nak turun sebab ada bad experience dengan lif di teratak mewah Kelana Jaya. She must be dragging Dove together with her. Ouh well, and she did.

Lif turun from 11th floor. Lif sebelah lif taik terbuka. Muka Dove and Syuk cuak. Lawak aku tengok!

Aku masuk lif.

Aku: "Rileks! Nothing paranormal."

Aku explain pasal taik. Taik cirit yang banyak dan sekarang masih bermain di minda. Macam bangang tak reti nak berak.

Dove: "Mesti orang tuh tak tahan nak cirit sangat! So booooooof! Cirit dalam lif.

Aku tak ada la bengang. Tapi please cucilah kalau kau terberak. Use your common sense.
Jangan jadi macam orang dalam gua.

KL Freeze in Unison. 2.30pm. Sunday 13th April.

2008-04-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

Where human beings get together to do something in unison, without speeches or reference to their age, colour, sex, beliefs and background.

This might just be the largest AND biggest Freeze ever done! Congratulations Kuala Lumpur! Be it individually or in a group, think of a unique pose!

You MUST synchronize the time of your watch or handphone with the time on this website.

They did it in London. Also in New York City.

And we’re doing it in the heart of Kuala Lumpur!

Freeze is a ’mission’ introduced by Improv Everywhere. Those participating will go to a certain location (Freeze Point) and freeze for a few minutes. Just like in the YouTube videos. That is all you do.

If you don’t understand that, then I hope you are not a registered voter.

We will meet at our Gathering Point 2.30pm (a location near our Freeze Point) for time synchronization and a quick briefing. Because this rooted from an international movement, you have to be punctual. Seriously.

Location for our Gathering Point will be revealed at 11pm on 11th April. It will be revealed on this event page, http://RandomAlphabets.com and private message only to those Attending and Maybe Attending.

It has to remain a secret till then. Has to. Or all will fail and the Ring won’t make it to Mordor.

Don’t worry. It will be a place conveniently accessible by public transport. Bus, train, taxi and penyapu terbang.

Here's the video from NYC's Grand Central Station:

shooting at pd ; cool lah .

2008-04-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

Me and jaimi. Supermodel. Wuhu.

Ouch !

Di bawah panas mentari. Syiok aih.

Port Dickson is a very nice place to go holiday. Betul lah. I went shooting there. Our short drama, Eros. Nanti akan ditayangkan di sini. Seronok di sana. We had barbeque. Shooting ketika matahari panas terik. Experience lah. Other than us, the Vainglorious Line Production team; me, Wardy, Alia, Tania and Iylia. There were Achor, as the main cast. Hairul, Fiza, Jaimi, Izmir, Mat Pet and Azril were there also. U guys rawk! Walau pun ada juga pergaduhan, tapi it was still fun. The beach was beautiful. Wish si montel was there with me. Sobs.

entrepreneurship dah siap .

2008-04-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

Ouh, habis sudah kerja Entrepreneurship yang menjadi tunjang perselisihan faham semalam. Cara minah tu marah, macam aku seorang saja yang belum bagi pada dia assignment. Kalau orang dah tak puas hati memang macam itu la.

FIVE more assignments to go.

1/ Marketing ; individual. Aku suka kerja individual, tak payah nak deal dengan orang yang
macam celaka.

2/ Event Management ; group. Presentation and submission.

3/ Communication Research ; group. Aku buat summary ; presentation and submission juga.

4/ Audio and Video Production ; group. Edit Eros ; Yid must help !

5/ Multimedia design and production ; group and individual. Website !

Semua kena submit next week. Huih, bertahan. I can do this.

minggu yang tegang dan menghambarkan .

2008-04-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

Minggu ini aku tak pulang ke teratak mewah Kelana Jaya, maka aku hidup dengan penuh kebosanan di Puncak Neraka. Kalau bukak sebab assignment yang menimbun mesti aku dah chow dari sini.

Ouh ya, hari tu, aku bawa motor! Yeahaa! Syok sat. I've told mama. Mama kasi. Tapi tak bitau si montel. Ouchh, takut dia marah. Best la. Aku bawa motor. Heee, childish sungguh.

april fool is for fools .

2008-04-01T02:21:00.000-07:00

Hari ini adalah April Fool. Swear, aku tak ingat langsung sampai lah the moment at Kandang with Wady and aku tengok date hari ni. Two years ago, masa April Fool, i met an accident with Ted. Masa tu, still semester satu.

Tapi bukan aku langgar orang. Orang langgar belakang Volvo masa kat roundabout Stadium Shah Alam tu. Dah lah aku yang drive. Tak boleh lupe lah that moment.

Since that moment, aku benci April Fool. Jangan cari pasal lah dengan aku.

Nanti ketuk kepala kau.

minggu yang keserabutan otak tahap melampau .

2008-04-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

Macam-macam jadi tapi aku masih cuba tabah. Bergaduh dan berselisih faham dengan close friends di Puncak Durjana. Sangat mengecewakan, Alhamdulillah, Wady willing to stick with me. Thanks Wady, aku kenang jasa kau.

Cepatlah habis belajar. Tak sabar sangat-sangat. Performance aku semester ini sangat mengecewakan. Minta maaf sangat kepada kawan-kawan yang sudah membenci aku.

Azam tahun baru tak berjaya.

Semalam si montel jemput di Puncak. Kalau si montel tak datang, mesti aku dah cut my wrist. Aku fikir seorang diri, 'Kau tu, dah lah tak banyak amalan, nak commit suicide pulak.' Sian si montel, demam teruk, seronok juga jaga dia demam.

Heh. I thought after coming back from Port Dickson everything will be fine.

Tapi tak juga. Kalau orang dah tak suka nak buat macam mana. Jangan buat hal dengan orang.

Kan orang dah benci. Aku down sangat.

Now, i have to stand on my own feet. Tak boleh depend on orang lain dah.

At least i still have my montel, Ted, Syuk and Wady. Thanks korang, aku ingat sampai mati.

Aku bodoh. Aku sengal.

2008-03-13T21:32:00.000-07:00

I want my montel, tapi kalau dia tau mesti dia cakap aku bodoh. Aku accident. Aku sangat bodoh. Aku sangat careless. Aku mengantuk. Bodoh sangat. Nak bunuh diri.

Rasa sangat bodoh.

bontot ku. ouh buasir !

2008-03-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

Ted masih sakit. May be sekarang dia sudah berada di Kajang. Tapak tangan aku mula terasa gatal untuk menulis blog walaupun kerja dan exam menimbun. Bagaimana lah tangan Ted agaknya. Lama betul die tak menulis apa-apa. Rindu untuk membaca blog dia.

Sebelum aku berundur diri, bontot aku memang benar-benar buasir, sakitnya sehingga menyucuk otak. Haha!

Ouh ya.

2008-03-05T12:49:00.000-08:00

Terlupa. Opah datang melawat aku tadi. Di saat genting mahu meyiapkan assignment Event, tiba-tiba Opah, Tok Ndak and Semah (my everdearest aunty) boleh pula datang melawat.

Thanks Opah, for the kebaya you brought from Taiping.

Sebab itu lah aku lambat submit assignment; Opah datang and rushing + thinking + concern about Ted's condition. So put the blame on Opah. Haha! Kidding.

hari ini, hari penat sedunia .

2008-03-05T12:21:00.000-08:00

Rushing ke sana-sini, mengejar masa mahu menjaga Ted, kejar Ciduk yang bergaduh dengan Syuk di kedai makan area Kampung Baru ketika aku sedang menguap besar (aku tak masuk campur; haha) dan kotak rokok yang sudah kosong. Jam di dinding tepat menunjukkan pukul 4.23 am, baru sampai teratak mewah Kelana Jaya. Penat.

Submit assignment Event Management kepada lecturer berbaju tidur comel pada pukul 11.17 pm. Dan Alia kata aku gila, mungkin sebab aku berani dan begitu daring untuk submit juga assignment walaupun lambat. Lecturer berbaju tidur comel sangat baik hati dan memahami situasi aku yang kena rushing dan menjadi driver separuh masa. And about Ted, she was admitted to Kampung Baru Medical Center yesterday because of her back bone, slip disc. Kasihan kesayangan saya itu. Tak boleh bergerak. Can't sense a needle pricked to her belly. Tak rasa sakit.

Get well soon dear Ted.

Aku cuak sebenarnya di saat melihat Syuk dan Ciduk bergaduh dan bertengkar. Tapi tak apa, rumah tangga kamu berdua. Jaga baik-baik ya. Jangan gaduh lagi. Dan aku, menghadapi minggu harapan tak kesampaian. Tak jumpa montel, assignment last minute, kawan-kawan macam cibai, attendance kelas yang lopong dan diet yang tak berjalan dengan lancar.

Aku mahu kurus. Mahu pakai dress cantik untuk MPG (Malam Pra Graduan). Perasan! Tapi nak juga.

Mata dah berat. Nak berry (bahasa moden untuk berak). Selamat malam dunia. Semoga hari esok akan lebih bermakna dan ceria.

pita rancak tidak jiwangan 3.

2008-03-02T10:53:00.000-08:00

Nak tengok sangat Step Up 2.

Smart babi. Sambil meraung.